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20th-Feb-2009 07:57 am - Secret Admirer
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I’m a little late doing this, but I should tell you about a secret admirer.

And it’s not a secret admirer for me either. It’s my son’s.

That’s right. My son’s. And she’s even from another state to boot.

See, he got not just one or two Valentine’s day cards from her, but a total of 5 cards.

The envelopes had nice decorations on them, with a couple even looking like they were sealed with a kiss. The insides of the cards were all written by hand and decorated with hearts and such. She even lightly scented them with perfume.

I was almost envious. Since I was involved in the planning in the first place, I wasn’t though.

I tell ya, the look on his face when I started handing them to him was priceless. What was even better was his expression when he got them opened and read. I do believe his face turned at least six shades of red. I wish I had thought to get the camera out, but I didn’t even think about it. I know, shame on me.

Being the sharp cookie he is, he got it pretty quickly narrowed down to two possible suspects. He just can’t decide which one it is, and I’m not telling.

Not yet anyway.

I think I’ll just let him stew on it for awhile longer.

20th-Feb-2009 07:55 am - Yellow Skateboards
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More Christmas’ ago than I care to remember, my sister and I got matching yellow skateboards from jolly old Saint Nick.

We couldn’t wait for the weather to warm up enough to get them out and tear up the streets. Okay, maybe not streets, but just our street.

The weather warms up, and out come the skateboards, practically glowing yellow in the sunlight. We rode those things all through spring and most of summer with out the first scrape, scratch, cut or bruise.

That all changed on fine afternoon. I couldn’t tell you the month or day, but I do remember the event vividly.

My sister was sitting on her skateboard, and I was pushing her around the block on the sidewalk. We had gotten most of the way around the block, and then, wham-o, disaster struck.

I was pushing her along at a pretty good clip, practically running behind her.

What I failed to see was that the side walk in front of us had heaved up just a little. It was enough that the front axle on the skateboard hit the leading edge of the concrete and hung.

Yes, the skateboard came to an immediate and abrupt halt. No, my sister and I did not. In fact, she went face first off of the skateboard onto said concrete sidewalk with my hands still firmly planted on her back.

It was not pretty.

She ended up with a skinned up forehead, a large L-shaped gash on her nose, busted lips, and a chipped tooth. She was definitely a mess.

At least I was able to side step her and not end up falling on her. That would have been even worse I think.

And yes, I felt really, really bad about it. I don’t think I got near those skateboards again for a rather long time. Somehow, they kinda lost their appeal for riding.

You know, now that I think about it, it’s a wonder that my sister survived her childhood. Between me and our older brothers, she had a few accidents. Or maybe it was that we caused her to be in a few accidents.

More to come later.

20th-Feb-2009 07:54 am - Blue Pedal Car
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Let me set the record straight right off the bat.

I was not responsible for this particular incident. I was off riding my Big Wheel, having my own little accident.

See, my sister and I had this little, blue 2-seater pedal car. Surely you all remember them. They're the great grandfathers of these little battery powered cars kids are so fond of now.

Anyway, while I was off tearing the skin off my toes, my sister was pedaling around in this car, minding her own business. Just, in general, having a good time.

One of our brothers, don't remember which one, thought it would be fun to push sis around for awhile. This would have been all well and good had he gone at a speed that her feet could keep up with.

But, he didn't.

He went all out. Before she could lift her feet clear of the pedals, her right foot got stuck or something.

The pinky toe on said foot was rather badly dislocated. This was one of several trips to the emergency room for dear old sis. (I can call her old since she is a whopping 4 minutes older.) And yes, my brother did get into some trouble over this.

Needless to say, neither of us got near that pedal car again when ever either of our brothers were near.

Hope you enjoyed today's installment of "Growing up with Sis."
17th-Feb-2009 06:12 pm - Coloring
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Sometimes what seems like seems like a fun thing to do at the time can really come back to bite you on the backside.

Take, for example, crawling behind the couch with your sister, crayons in hand, and proceeding to draw on the living room wall.

While it was fantastic artwork and a great way to pass the time, it wasn't the smartest thing we'd ever done.

At least we weren't caught in the act of decorating the wall with our creative genius. Mom didn't find the results till later in the day. How, I don't know. No, I take that back. Being a parent, I realize now that she simply had a sixth sense that alerted her when we had been up to no good.

It just didn't alert her quick enough that day.

For some reason, my sister caught the brunt of the trouble, and, to be painfully honest, I let her take it. I kept my mouth shut. Mom was pretty ticked, and I didn't want any part of her wrath.

I know. Pretty shameful. Lettin' your twin sister take the blame for something that was probably your idea in the first place.

I did start to feel pretty bad once pop got home and she got into even more trouble. When it came time for a spanking, I just couldn't take it any more, and 'fessed up to my role in the crime.

And yes, I had to go out and pick my very own switch off the tree. That presented a problem in itself. Pick one too small, and pop went and got one himself. Pick one a little too big...an even redder, sorer backside.

So, instead of getting away pretty much scott free, I ended up with sore behind too.

Lesson learned.
16th-Feb-2009 09:25 pm - A Better Day
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After successfully ticking off my daughter, my son and their mother over the course of yesterday and this morning, the day got much better about mid-morning today.

My phone rang and the caller id said “unknown number.” I smiled and thought, “Alright! I think I know who this is!”

As it turned out, I was right. It was Shannon on the other end. You may wonder why I thought it was her to begin with. This is because the very first time she called me, October last year while I was at station 2 about 6:30pm, the caller id read “unknown number.” I almost didn’t answer that call, but am I ever glad I did! So, while it could have been some one else, she was the first to come to mind.

I’m very glad it was her. I can’t accurately express how relieved I was. It had been a week since we last talked, but, when you’re used to talking to someone every day, it seemed a much longer time.

We talked for quite a while, but then she needed to go to take care of tipping horns on some of her cattle. She called back late this afternoon, and we talk a while longer, till it was time for us fix dinner. It really was wonderful to hear her voice again.

And yes, I look forward to talking to her again tomorrow. But then, I always look forward to talking to her. I’ve told her several times that we could end a phone call, turn around and call right back, and I’d still be happy to hear from her again. That may sound kinda silly, but it’s the truth.

In addition, mom is feeling a fair amount better today. The doctors have actually talked about releasing her later in the week.

Pop’s hand hasn’t gotten any better, but it hasn’t gotten worse either. So, that’s good.

My ex called me and said that she had been thinking about it and had decided that she should at least help out with this other bill of hers that I got stuck with. You could have knocked me over with a feather.

Last, but not least, my son has been in a much better mood this evening. He hasn’t gotten mad even one time. That’s a nice change of pace.

Have a fine night!

8th-Feb-2009 08:00 pm - CCU
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My mother was admitted to the hospital last Friday evening. She hadn’t been feeling well, complaining of her legs hurting.

Turns out she had blood clots in them…again.

This is a result of being taken off of her blood thinner, put back on it, and then taken back off again. Don’t these doctors use any common sense when it comes to things like this, particularly when this exact same thing happened just a few months ago?

I don’t get it.

Anyway, she wasn’t responding as well as they wanted, and an ekg showed an abnormal rhythm, so she was moved to CCU yesterday morning.

Now, I just found out that, on top of the other things, she has (are you ready for this?) pneumonia. That’s right, pneumonia.

What the heck? Shouldn’t the blood clots alone be enough for her? Or shouldn’t the abnormal heart beat be enough? Apparently not. Let’s just combine the two and throw in a dose of pneumonia to boot.

Really, God, enough is enough. I’ve always been told You won’t give us more than we can handle, but do You really have to push the limits so often? Maybe I shouldn’t be questioning You, but at this point, I can’t help it.

I mean, I’m used to hearing bad reports on pop. Heck, I’ve even come to expect them. But not so much with mom. She’s beaten breast cancer twice, and now, it seems like everything’s coming on at once.

This is part of what was on my mind last night that I didn’t feel like getting into. To be honest, I was a little to angry, and a little to down to write about it. Thankfully, I do feel somewhat better tonight. Talking to Shannon earlier helped out quite a bit.

Anyway, that’s all I got right now. More to come later.

5th-Feb-2009 08:55 pm - Cutting Comment
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A few days ago, I was at the tattoo shop getting the tribal eagle on my right arm touched up.

Melissa, the tattoo artist, and I were talking, just some general b.s. After a brief lull in the conversation, she asked me a question/made a statement that really took me off guard.

It was this: “Why are you a firefighter? You don’t look like a firefighter, at least not what I picture one to look like. I picture these big, burly men that don’t care much about anything. Guys that are somewhat on the mean side. Real manly men. Macho. Full of bravado.”

I sat there somewhat at a loss for words.

She continued with this: “You just seem too nice, too caring to be doing that job. I think you should be doing something else. And I didn’t mean to insinuate you weren’t a real man either. Sorry about that.”

I was still at a loss, so I sat there for a minute before I could answer.

Once I collected my thoughts, I answered with this: “Well, at the time I started at the fire department, it was a good way to better my family. I mean work one day and then be off for two? How could you pass up that kind of schedule? But, I just didn’t realize the toll it would take on my homelife and such. Obviously, it pretty well wrecked that.”

I did have to agree with her that I don’t look like the image most people have of a fireman, which is fine with me. I would say you could put me in a line up with a sign pointing down at me, and no one would still peg me as the firefighter.

I also had to agree that I do tend to care too much, which is not really the best thing in that line of work. You take alot of stuff with you, lock it away inside you where it just lays in wait for the worst time to pop up and say “Here I am!”

What does it say about me when someone from way outside the profession is saying that I care too much and should do something different?

I have been struggling with that very question for a long time now. It was just really odd hearing it voiced from someone that I would never have expected it from.
4th-Feb-2009 07:51 pm - Winter Storm Pictures
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These pictures were taken outside of station 1, on Wednesday morning, January 28th. By this point, all the freezing rain had changed to snow. We ended up getting close to 5" of the white stuff. I'll take twice that amount over ice any time. Photobucket Photobucket Photobucket Photobucket Photobucket Photobucket Photobucket
26th-Jan-2009 07:35 pm - 4 Wheel Drive & A Lot of Bull(s)
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Weather forecast: snow and a lot of it!

We're expecting a fair amount of snow here over night, anywhere from 4" to 7", and then another 3" to 4" tomorrow night. Areas to our south are looking at a significant amount of ice.

I'll gladly take the snow, but you can keep the ice.

We had a small snowfall less than a week ago, just enough to cover the roads and cause a little bit of travel trouble. I had to put the truck into 4 wheel drive to get out of my neighborhood. That was pretty cool. I will say that driving this truck in snow is completely different than the Explorer that I just got rid of.

I can't believe I'm gonna say this, particularly after how much I complained about it, but I miss the automatic 4 wheel drive that the Explorer had. When it sensed the rear wheels start to spin, the front axle would engage, thus keeping the vehicle going straight and the rear end from sliding out on me.

The F-150 is 4 wheel drive, but it doesn't automatically engage. Trust me on this when I tell you that the rear end slides out a little too easily. I realize that part of it is operator error, but in my defense, I haven't driven a full-size truck in snowy conditions before. Also, the back end is quite light, which lets it slide around easier. I think that an auto-engaging front axle would help out quite a bit.

Does it mean you're older when you no longer want to go sliding around corners in the snow? I'm choosing to think of it as just being a little more careful.

Now for the bull(s).

Yes, it's the second round and short-go of the PBR Dallas. I'm watching it as we speak. I really hope my PBR fantasy team does well tonight. I'm keeping my fingers crossed that my guy Guilherme has a great ride. He needs one, badly. I'm also wishing good luck to JB Mauney, just not quite as good as Marchi. As sad as it is to say, I didn't pick either one for my team this week.

Next week, though, I'm not sure who I'm gonna pick. I'd like to say I'll pick Marchi, but I just don't know. He's involved in a small little wager, $20,000 to be exact, next week. He's riding the world champion bull, Bones.

I'll probably seek out some advice again, as I did this week.

You all have a fine night.

I've a bedtime story to go tell.
24th-Jan-2009 07:12 pm - The Job and Me
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I’ve been with the fire department for closing in on 11 years now, and for the most part, it hasn’t been bad, with the notable exception of the past six months or so. That has been enough to cause severe burnout. I could walk away tomorrow and never look back, but you all have heard this before.

The job and I have came to an agreement 6 or 7 years ago, and it has been modified a few times in the intervening years since then.

This original agreement came after my captain and I got into a bit of trouble in an ordinary house fire. I really don’t feel the need to go into details, but suffice it to say that it scared the crap out of both of us. However, we got of the situation with no injuries. No harm, no foul. Right?

It was after this incident that the agreement first came into being. And the agreement is simply this. The fire will not try to cause harm to me, and in return, I’ll extinguish it as quickly and painlessly as possible. I’m not about to get myself in a position to get hurt again.

For the most part, this agreement has worked well. Granted, there have been a couple of minor accidents, but they have been screw ups on my part. I have learned from those screw ups too, so it’s all good.

Now, though, I think it’s time to amend that agreement again. This bit of editing has been caused by a fire we had this past Monday. We were on scene for over 4 hours, and I missed several calls, which in turn, caused some worry.

This amendment will say something about not causing those I care about to become worried about me, particularly when they can’t reach me for several hours. There will also have to be language in there about taking the time to send a message or text, or even place a quick call, to those concerned, say during a rehab break, or while my air tank is being refilled, so that they will know that all’s well; so that they will know I’m unharmed and in one piece.

What do you think? Good idea, or just plain silly? To be honest, it doesn’t really matter. I’m going to do this anyway. It’ll take less time to send a text or place a quick call, than it will for my air tank to be refilled. I’m not doing anything during that time anyway, so may as well make use of it some how.

And to me, knowing that I’m easing someone’s mind would be a good thing to do.

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